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happy birthday to me.

“I’m FIFTY! Fifty years old, ladies and gentleman.” — Molly Shannon as Sally O’Malley  It’s here. The day of reckoning. I’ve entered my fifth decade. I wish I could say that I’ve finally arrived and that my insecurities, fears, and self-deficiencies have all washed away down the L.A. River… but given that California is in […]

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September 18, 2014 - 3:44 pm

Michael Hilty - Happy Birthday Rebecca!
I love your writing and look forward to reading it. I agree with so many things you have to say, and identify with many of them. Please keep up the excellent work, I’ll be watching for more of your writings…

And you are right-it is the journey, this moment in time- that really matters…

Michael Hilty

September 18, 2014 - 4:20 pm

Jeff Gabica - I can fill in a few blanks! ;) I love you, cuz, with all my heart and soul. You have been a part of my life for 50 years and I must say, it doesn’t seem like a long time. I wish you the best year EVER and keep moving through your journey with all the grace that you have in the first 50.

September 18, 2014 - 7:44 pm

Robert Shaw - Nice

September 18, 2014 - 9:55 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - Thank you, Michael!

September 18, 2014 - 9:55 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - Thanks, Cuz. I love you very much!

September 19, 2014 - 7:58 pm

molly - BY FAR, THE BEST POST YET! I love you Speck, this was amazing!
And the best part of the Sally O’Malley video is that I can hear you saying it! IIIIIIIIIIIII’M 50!
love you forever and always!
xxxx. your fave niece ;]

September 19, 2014 - 7:59 pm

Molly Goldbach - BY FAR, THE BEST POST YET! I love you Speck, this was amazing!
And the best part of the Sally O’Malley video is that I can hear you saying it! IIIIIIIIIIIII’M 50!
love you forever and always!
xxxx. your fave niece ;]

can you hear me now?

“You’re going to miss me when I’m gone.” — My Mom, most of my life.  Do you remember the 2002 Verizon Wireless commercials? The “Test Guy” repeating the same question over and over? You know the one, “Can you hear me now?” Well, it’s haunted me for many years. More specifically, every may. Every May […]

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June 13, 2014 - 5:51 pm

Marty Gabica - Damn it. You made me cry cous.

June 13, 2014 - 6:05 pm

Miranda Seymour - Oh Becky, so sorry for your loss. It is heartbreaking….so brave to write this. And yes, it never really goes away. I am preparing for my mother’s passing in the next few years and the saddest thing is that we never really had a relationship and never will….so it’s mourning the loss of that potential. Love ‘em or tolerate them, they are our parents, it’s the biggest loss we all face. Love you. xoxo

June 13, 2014 - 6:28 pm

Vicki - Crying!!! I love how you Write feelings out so beautifully ! Even though I’m so sad.

June 13, 2014 - 7:10 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - I made you cry? I’m sorry Cuz. I’ll give you a hug in a few weeks! Xx

June 13, 2014 - 7:12 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - Thank you. I’m sorry to have made you cry! Xx

June 13, 2014 - 8:53 pm

Eric Goldbach - Nicely done! 11 years? really?

June 16, 2014 - 4:54 am

rstay3@gmail.com - Thank you, Miranda. Funny, I don’t feel brave. I just feel compelled to tell the tale. It’s very healing. Xx

In Bloom.

“Feeling my way through the darkness. Guided by a beating heart. I can’t tell where the journey will end. But I know where to start” — Avicii I love that song, Wake Me Up by Avicii. It seems to be describing my life (well, except the line about being “young”) as it is right now. “They tell me I’m […]

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May 6, 2014 - 4:36 pm

Dennis - Beautifully said!

May 6, 2014 - 4:44 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - Thank you, hubby!

May 6, 2014 - 4:46 pm

Leslie Jones - The plant is beautiful but you are GORGEOUS!

May 6, 2014 - 4:53 pm

leslie jones - Fabulous website by the way!

May 6, 2014 - 5:03 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - No, you’re GORGEOUS!

May 6, 2014 - 6:00 pm

Julie Chenell DeNeen - That’s beautiful!!!!

May 6, 2014 - 6:12 pm

Marc Aaron Goldbach - those are weeds for goodness sake water them

May 6, 2014 - 6:13 pm

Angel Weers - Love this!

May 6, 2014 - 6:37 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - Thanks, Lady! Oh, wait, were you talking about the plant or the post :-0

May 6, 2014 - 6:37 pm

rstay3@gmail.com - funny. very funny.

May 6, 2014 - 6:58 pm

Vicki Forster - What a great post!!!! Beautiful

May 8, 2014 - 2:24 pm

Jolene Yvonne Fisher - This was a great way to start the day! Enjoyed your post as always.

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